An Emptier Closet
So for a couple of weeks now, I've felt the nudge to go through my closet and get rid of anything that didn't make me feel good about myself. If it didn't make me feel pretty, regardless of the reasoning, it had to go.
A few days ago I finally did it. Each and every shirt was tried on. If it made me feel good about myself, it went back in the closet. If it made me question my appearance, then it had to go. And hesitancies meant it was out. Some were a bit big, some small, some fine, but still just didn't make me feel comfortable.
I pulled a good chunk of my closet out. Probably half, if not more.
I've been fortunate enough to have the majority of my clothes given to me. Which means I've reserved some for the "when I get skinnier" days.
But not anymore!! I have a closet of clothes that make me feel good. That don't waste space for "maybe one day". It feels freeing and refreshing. It feels nice to be kind to myself and to my body.
And I had a great support system to help me along the way.
Two little furbabies that love me just the way I am.
And the best part... I had 3 days in a row last week where I looked in the mirror and felt pretty. Not because of what I was wearing. But because a deep confidence and freedom is being built up inside me.
And because I'm learning more and more about love. I'm learning more and more about how to love and how to be loved. About how love is so much deeper than something we can often make it out to be.
Love changes us. Love teaches us to be kind and gentle. Love covers more than we know. Love is so much bigger than just feelings toward a person.
I'm thankful. It feels nice to have an emptier closet. It feels like more room to breathe. It feels like being generous and sharing what I've been given. It feels so much deeper than just appearances. It feels like satisfying my soul. Filling it full.
A friend told me tonight that I looked different. My appearance even. That I looked happier and maybe even like I lost weight.
Nope. No weight loss. There's work to be done in staying healthy. But its also important to nourish my soul. I think if I invest in my soul, then all the rest will fall into place.
How is your soul doing? Find a way to be kind to yourself this week. Find a way to give yourself some room to breathe. Find a way to just be sweet and considerate.
And be patient. There are moments to be enjoyed in times of waiting. Fight for the small moments. Savor them. They are worth it.
Love is worth it.